Tales of a Double Virgo
You Get There Because You Want To
this occurred to me today on a walk
<oh, i love the walking insights>
i can ‘get there’ because i want to.
it has nothing to do with how much
or how little i work
where i came from
what my past ‘conditioning’ was
what my current situation is
on and on forever.
i tend to perhaps blame this or that
for where i am.
‘oh, if i would have only learned that as a child.’
‘if i just changed that.’
‘if only that was different.’
today i felt
the reason ANYONE does anything
or gets anywhere
is because they freaking want to.
all habits can be changed
all obstacles can be moved <or jumped over>
all patterns can be broken
all past can be erased
all wounds can heal.
this leaves me with>
if i’m not ‘there’ yet
it’s because i haven’t wanted it badly enough.
it’s soooo not spiritual to want things <ha!>
you surely don’t want to want from a place of lack or neediness.
bla bla bla.
i’m talking about the desire
that is unwavering
you don’t fucking stop till you get there.
you get there because you want to
the only real obstacle is yourself.
man, it feels good to feel the words flowing again.
fuck that video shit
i’m not there yet.
i don’t want it badly enough.
many things have changed.
i am new
you are new
this place is new all around us.
what do you want?
are you willing to go for it?
are you willing to step out of your way to get there?
hurry back to yourself, hunny
get nice and comfy in that body you came in to.
fill in AND out
set your gaze to the land ahead
where you’d like to see yourself.
you are already there
the weather is fine.