Tales of a Double Virgo

Episode 10

You Get There Because You Want To

this occurred to me today on a walk

<oh, i love the walking insights>

i can ‘get there’ because i want to.

it has nothing to do with how much

or how little i work

where i came from

what my past ‘conditioning’ was

what my current situation is

and

on and on forever.

 

i tend to perhaps blame this or that

for where i am.

‘oh, if i would have only learned that as a child.’

‘if i just changed that.’

‘if only that was different.’

 

today i felt

hmmmm

the reason ANYONE does anything

or gets anywhere

is because they freaking want to.

all habits can be changed

all obstacles can be moved <or jumped over>

all patterns can be broken

all past can be erased

all wounds can heal.

 

this leaves me with>

no excuses.

if i’m not ‘there’ yet

it’s because i haven’t wanted it badly enough.

 

i know

it’s soooo not spiritual to want things <ha!>

and

you surely don’t want to want from a place of lack or neediness.

bla bla bla.

i’m talking about the desire

that is unwavering

clear

focused

and

you don’t fucking stop till you get there.

 

you get there because you want to

and

the only real obstacle is yourself.

 

man, it feels good to feel the words flowing again.

fuck that video shit

i’m not there yet.

or maybe

i don’t want it badly enough.

 

yes

many things have changed.

i am new

you are new

this place is new all around us.

 

what do you want?

are you willing to go for it?

are you willing to step out of your way to get there?

hurry back to yourself, hunny

and

get nice and comfy in that body you came in to.

fill in AND out

and

set your gaze to the land ahead

where you’d like to see yourself.

 

you are already there

waiting

and

the weather is fine.