you again

Daily Nugget #216

you again

 

that familiar place

that i thought i was ‘done with’

coming back around for another look.

looky looky.

see me now?

damn!
i thought we were thru.

i thought that i ‘fixed’ you

healed you

i thought i did the work

to get to the other side.

 

but still you remain.

you are a survivor.

you are like the cockroach

surviving everything AND the ice age.

fire. flood. meteors.

 

you.

the cockroach.

surviving deep within me.

emerging at uncomfortable moments

erupting

out of freaking nowhere.

you.

my thing. my issue.

my cockroach made of steel.

 

if you are a survivin’ cockroach

made of indestructible something something

AND

if i can accept

that your essence

lives inside of me

then

i guess that makes me

pretty bad ass.

 

maybe instead of cursing your arrival

i could celebrate it.

if YOU are really a part of ME

they why fight?

 

and in that moment of

‘why fight’

acceptance settled in.

 

all along you wanted to work as a team.

to be loved. acknowledged. seen.

to complete your ‘mission’.

 

i guess i’m ok with that.

changing my attitude

my perspective

i will work on.

 

you won’t take me this time.

we will walk together.

maybe even dance?

who'da thought?

who’da thought?

 

Comments 1

  1. WOW just WOW. 216 is a number that surfaced for me April 2015 in the parking lot of my job several times,I knew to be on the look out for its message in my life. I met him in May, lots of prickly stuff ensued where my self esteem issues got triggered where I got knocked off balance then scramble to get in his good graces once again. When I finally saw this game as destructive I bailed, feeling torn. I felt it necessary to delete all contact we’d had to clear it from me altogether. Our first e-mail was at 2:16 pm in May, My break up e-mail was at 2:16 am in July.216 came at me constantly on car tags, tax amount on cash register at my job, etc. He resurfaced in February and again in April 2016,as I looked at my computer waiting on him to respond the time was 2:16…present time I realized he was reflecting to me a part of myself I’d denied and pushed away and how I was not allowing myself to exist. I was searching for your website and the first thing that grabbed my attention was Daily nugget #216. how healing your words as I saw my story in your story. What a beautiful flow of energy that touched me as I felt a wrapping up of the 216 energy for me, and how to let go of my perceived pain and start gifting myself with my own generosity. Thank you

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