Tales of a Double Virgo
Episode #26
write me!!
‘Write Me!’ the words demanded.
‘Go away’ i say.
‘I AM HERE!!! Can’t you hear me??!!’ the words yell.
‘I hear you just fine, but i’m tired. Leave me alone.’ says me.
‘But it’s our time of the week. We have so much to share. Why are you ignoring us??!!’ the words wail.
‘I’m busy. Distracted. Not interested. Leave Me ALONE!’
but the words persist.
i drag myself to the computer
when i’d rather be in bed
and
allow the words to have their way with me.
my resistance is HUGE.
such is the way of any ‘practice’.
sometimes we don’t wanna do it
and we do anyway.
the nature of the beast
beast = practice = what it takes to get there
the words have a story
and
my eyes are google-y.
and
i
practice.
what’s it going to be today, words?
what fine things do you have to offer?
wise guy, ay?
now you get all quiet?
wtf.
i hear Sponge Bob giggling in another room of my house.
the blow of the heat coming thru the vents.
the neighbor’s dog barks.
i feel like i’ve got nothing.
‘WRITE!’ the words yell at me.
‘holy crap,’ i say.
i feel empty
tired
ready to collapse
but
here i stay.
fingers poised on the keyboard
writing nonsense
and
lots of bla bla’s.
what the heck was all of that yelling about?
i thought there was a big something something to be shared?!
and
here i stay.
practicing my practice.
committed to my craft.
feeling the nothingness
that i feel full of
and
i write thru…..
breathe in
breathe out
repeat.
too much filling my head for writing.
too many other things to do other than write.
i don’t feel inspired.
the list of excuses goes on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on
excuses excuses.
why do we deny what is good?
why do we resist the practice?
why do we turn to distractions
<run run run>
instead of to the depth of BEingness?
the depth of BEingness.
the ability
the willingness
the commitment
to the practice
whatever it might be
so that the noise goes away
eventually
and
the inspiration gets breathed in
eventually
and
we feel so much better
eventually
if we just practice.
practice practicing.
practice BEing.
commit to whatever it is you commit to
and
stay with it
no matter how you feel.
practice the practice.
Begin.
Comments 3
Perfect reminder at the perfect time, as usual. xo
?. All so true
And thanks for doing your practice despite resistance to benefit us as well!