Tales of a Double Virgo
Episode #40
unexpected moment of bliss
i was standing there
feeling ok
when it hit me
again.
the sometimes and often
tidal wave of grief
whose exact moment of impact
cannot be anticipated.
a friend died last week.
the whole community in shock.
his wife?
if my pain is this intense
i cannot even begin to imagine hers.
grief is no stranger.
my entire BEing feels worked
top to bottom
inside and out.
the pain is exhausting
on many levels
and
so familiar.
grief
if i let it have its way with me
my insides turn to mush
like a caterpillar
in its cocoon
liquifying
in to its cosmic goo
as the imaginal cells
dream up the next version of self
unlike the old.
this is much how grief affects me
turning my inners to goo
to be REformed
as my new version of self.
deep loss.
deep pain.
dotted with
unexpected moments of bliss.
how is bliss possible
within pain?!
i went for a drive
to a lake
at the base of the mountains
a sacred spot
to recharge.
it was stormy
it took my breath away
i felt my body lighten
my heart swell
-an unexpected moment of bliss-
and for a moment
i allowed myself to be washed with the beauty
the pure ecstasy of being alive
IN THIS MOMENT.
sometimes what is always there
is only noticeable
thru tears.
maybe the tears
windshield wipe
our vision
clearing out layers of dirt and splattered bugs
so that we can actually see
with new eyes
what truly lies before us.
maybe the goo
that grief turns our insides to
can REform
as a more beautiful version of ourselves
capable of
unexpected moments of bliss
deep gratitude
and
mucho love and appreciation
for what is.
maybe the breath that is inhaled
to a limp, grieving body
contains the life force energy
to ultimately set us free.
much love & support to anyone
anywhere
who is grieving.
may the goo it creates turn in to something beautiful.
Comments 3
Thank you soulful sister. Your a sacred words soothe the parchmess of it all. Xo Love you Wolf Sister.
Once again I am excited to read your stuff, and am in Love with the message. Especially the end. Thank you.
oxoxoxo!!