the scab

Daily Nugget #203

the scab

 

i’m feeling my darker side coming thru lately

in my life

in my Nuggets.

 

spending endless hours in bed

feeling like shit

having a Dexter marathon

will do that to a person.

 

are you a scab ripper?

never allowing the dang thing to just fall off on its own.

un-able to resist the URGE to pick.

ahhh, the feeling of flaking off your own crusty skin.

wtf.

us humans are weird.

 

what about the scab that gets ripped off

of a wound that is actively healing

<or not>

??

the scab that covers our hurts

our traumas.

our stuff we keep hidden.

so we think…

 

sometimes life rips the scab off for us.

<life can have a dark sense of humor too>

ever have it yank that scab off

in a place you wish it hadn’t?

why?

why do you want it to stay?

like that loose tooth that dangles

in the mouth of a 6 year old

way beyond its yankin’ time.

 

there is something comfy about that covering

that keeps our insides from oozing out.

something comfy and ‘safe’

in knowing there is a bit of armor

between us and ‘them’.

 

life just pulled a big scab from my inners.

it threw me in to such a state of shock

that i felt like i had fallen

in to a black hole.

i seem to be falling....

i seem to be falling….

 

the skin underneath was a bit sensitive.

everything hurts.

why is it so bright?

why do my eyes hurt?

‘because you’ve never used them.’  <thanks Morpheus.

morpheus

 

we have choice.

always.

the red or the blue pill.

to pick or not to pick.

 

we can choose to pick our own scabs

<most of them anyways>

or

life can rip them off.

and really

it only does

when we are ready for it.

sometimes you gotta give the little fledglings a push.

 

what’s under

is a new perspective.

and

potentially

a New Everything

if we Allow it.

 

there’s that Allow word again.

dang.

 

to pick or not to pick.

me?

sometimes i pick’m.

they can be soooo irresistible.

mostly

i feel like life pushes me out of my warm nest.

‘you got this,’ i hear

as i am falling to my next adventure.

you got this.

 

i guess i do.

or else

i wouldn’t have been pushed…..

damn. i hope i'm ready.

damn. i hope i’m ready.

 

 

 

 

 

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