Daily Nugget #203
the scab
i’m feeling my darker side coming thru lately
in my life
in my Nuggets.
spending endless hours in bed
feeling like shit
having a Dexter marathon
will do that to a person.
are you a scab ripper?
never allowing the dang thing to just fall off on its own.
un-able to resist the URGE to pick.
ahhh, the feeling of flaking off your own crusty skin.
wtf.
us humans are weird.
what about the scab that gets ripped off
of a wound that is actively healing
<or not>
??
the scab that covers our hurts
our traumas.
our stuff we keep hidden.
so we think…
sometimes life rips the scab off for us.
<life can have a dark sense of humor too>
ever have it yank that scab off
in a place you wish it hadn’t?
why?
why do you want it to stay?
like that loose tooth that dangles
in the mouth of a 6 year old
way beyond its yankin’ time.
there is something comfy about that covering
that keeps our insides from oozing out.
something comfy and ‘safe’
in knowing there is a bit of armor
between us and ‘them’.
life just pulled a big scab from my inners.
it threw me in to such a state of shock
that i felt like i had fallen
in to a black hole.
i seem to be falling….
the skin underneath was a bit sensitive.
everything hurts.
why is it so bright?
why do my eyes hurt?
‘because you’ve never used them.’ <thanks Morpheus.
we have choice.
always.
the red or the blue pill.
to pick or not to pick.
we can choose to pick our own scabs
<most of them anyways>
or
life can rip them off.
and really
it only does
when we are ready for it.
sometimes you gotta give the little fledglings a push.
what’s under
is a new perspective.
and
potentially
a New Everything
if we Allow it.
there’s that Allow word again.
dang.
to pick or not to pick.
me?
sometimes i pick’m.
they can be soooo irresistible.
mostly
i feel like life pushes me out of my warm nest.
‘you got this,’ i hear
as i am falling to my next adventure.
you got this.
i guess i do.
or else
i wouldn’t have been pushed…..
damn. i hope i’m ready.
Let’s dance!