Tales of a Double Virgo
(22 is my number!! i hope this episode rocks!)
they say money is the root of all evil.
who is this ‘they’ anyway?
and root of all evil? hmmmmm.
- money is not evil. money is paper. paper made by us. it’s not really real, tho a very persistent illusion.
- and evil? what IS evil?
Definition of evil for English Language Learners
: morally bad
: causing harm or injury to someone
: marked by bad luck or bad events
when i stare at ‘evil’ for a bit, it starts to look like it’s not spelled right.
funny that it is LIVE backwards.
the concept of ‘morally bad’ can be defined in so many ways.
what is ‘morally bad’ for one
is surely NOT for another.
and who gets to choose what is morally bad?
it’s a belief. a judgment.
this may begin to dip in to the territory i have been pondering this week so far
based on a quote by Natalie Goldberg.
‘Write what disturbs you, what you fear, what you have not been willing to speak about. Be willing to be split open.’
as much as i have avoided doing that
it just keeps coming up.
back on track.
i also found this:
Anything of value that serves as a (1) generally accepted medium of financial exchange, (2) legal tender for repayment of debt, (3) standard of value, (4) unit of accounting measure, and (5) means to save or store purchasing power.
Anything of value?
if anything of value is the root of all morally bad things
that doesn’t make much sense.
if money = anything of value
then i can think of a hell of a lot more things more valuable than green paper.
what about the reasons people do morally f’ed up things for money?
how does that money ultimately make us/them feel?
powerful? free? important?
if money grew on the trees in my yard
in endless supply
what would i do? how would i feel?
well, i’d for sure pick some daily.
i’d be sure to water and compost and love on those trees
because they are producing something valuable.
but am i treating them any differently than the current trees in my yard?
what if we poured our love and attention
in to all things of value.
how would that affect our lives?
and if those valuable things = money
wouldn’t we all be limitlessly abundant?
now on to the things that disturb me. what i fear and am not willing to speak about.
i’ll prob piss some people off
but i’m getting pretty good at that.
not because i want to
but because i can’t sacrifice how i feel for my dislike of conflict anymore.
there. i said it.
i totally freaking avoid conflict.
it used to be AT ALL COSTS.
i’m stirring the pot more than i’d like to
but grinning and bearing it
doesn’t cut it any more.
what disturbs me?
the fact that so many women have their babies unnecessarily cut out of them
by a cold instrument.
pulled from a warm womb
to be strapped in a plastic seat
with a plastic thing-y to suck on.
babies need the squeeze of the Vag to welcome them in to the world
the arms of their people to be cradled by.
we ‘elected’ a pussy grabbing hater to lead us in to the age of Aquarius
so many have zero self awareness and go around blaming everyone else for their OWN CREATION!
people kill wolves with a hard on and total disregard for the families they are destroying
we think it’s ok to dump our shit all over the earth in the name of profit and business
we inject poison in to our babies
and consume it all the time in our crappy food system
we kill elephants for their tusks
we think horrible thoughts about ourselves and those we claim to love
what do i fear?
i fear that sharing what i really feel about all of it
will turn all of you against me.
what am i not willing to talk about?
we don’t talk about religion or politics.
but maybe the pussy grabbing hater is the SHOCK
that we need to wake us the FUCK UP!
the last stand of the patriarchy.
it has to go out with a BANG.
i honestly lean in to trust and hope
so much that i surprise myself.
i know that i am always doing my part
that’s the best i can do for all that is.
there really is a Grand Plan
is not invited.
tho it will try like hell to crash the party.
i may feel disturbed about our behavior
but i still believe in human kind.
i may have fears that you will hate me
and that i’ll feel even more alone
but i say it anyway.
i may not talk about god and republicans
cause deep down
i know we all play a part.
the real root to all of this madness
is the total DisConnection from who we really are.
the need for power for freedom for recognition
can be satiated by directing the focus inward.
true power really does live within
live = evil backwards
true freedom exists in the mind
freedom = valuable = money = freedom
recognition can be found when we allow our true selves to step forward
regardless of what anyone will think
recognition = allowing who we are to live our lives
then we realize
that the most valuable thing
is the freedom we find
Living our Lives
as our Truest Selves
anything other than this
is the root of all pain and suffering.
so maybe the real definition of Evil is:
living a life of UNtruth
<or not true to oneself>
which may be the most morally bad deed of them all.