Daily Nugget #194
fear, that is.
fear is the Lurker.
i ponder it often.
many have SOOOOO much of it
that it drips from them. oozes.
funny that often those are the same folks
who feel they have none.
for the rest of us
it is a bit more hidden.
impacting our lives
in ways we are not aware of.
i was examining my life
looking at things i avoid
certainly don’t align with.
is the lurker present?
i looked at the things i avoid:
chemicals. pesticides. radiation. cheap plastic shit.
to name a few.
why do i avoid these things?
because they don’t align.
because they suck.
does fear lurk there?
i don’t want to give my kids an apple that has been sprayed
a plastic water bottle to drink out of.
this is where i get hung up.
is there a line between my beliefs
do these things really matter?
is it the fear that harms us?
i haven’t yet gotten to the bottom of this.
it has stirred many things within me
stir things within you.
separate your beliefs
how linked are they? really.
how many beliefs are actually birthed from fear?
how much of our lives are then shaped by it?
by the Lurker?
are you too caught up in your belief of your beliefs
to even ponder their connection to the Lurker?
notice the rise you feel within
as you attempt to defend what you believe.
what are you defending?
i know for me
the rise that happens is:
‘how can it possibly be ok to poison the earth AND ourselves?’
what i’m questioning now is
which one is the poison?
my beliefs? my fears?
the ‘bad guys’ doing the ‘bad’ stuff?
then i wonder which even came first?
did my fear create the bad guys?
did our collective fear create them?
are the ‘bad guys’ our mirror?
what came first?
the age old question.
and one worth pursuing.
examine YOUR lurker
see where it leads you.
be willing to see the truth
whatever it might be.
maybe we will find
that the greatest poison
comes from within ourselves
spills out on to the world.
<a bit hard to swallow THAT responsibility>
are you willing to explore that?
are you willing to change things?
within all of us?
so everything changes??
deep thoughts to ponder deeply.
notice how you feel.
be willing to see.