Daily Nugget #66

The Last Visit.

 

i am visiting

for the last time

the things that have influenced

my inner world

for as long as

well probably my whole life

or

most of it.

 

i am experiencing deep plunges

into my feelings.

ones that have shaped my experience

defined my beliefs

and

piloted my life.

 

these feelings

tho they have been with me for so long

are now feeling uncomfortable

or maybe

i’m just now recognizing that THEY ARE NOT REAL!

i am not saying that what we feel is not real.

it’s the fear that isn’t.

 

f.e.a.r. = false evidence appearing real

(thanks gabby bernstein)

 

most of these are experiences are fear based.

fear of this happening

or

of this NOT happening

or

bla bla bla.

 

so now

when these feelings come up

they feel icky

uncomfortable

and

downright suckish

because

THEY ARE NOT REAL.

 

they feel bad because they are not true.

they are not the TRUTH.

 

truth resonates beautifully in the body

and

in the emotions.

like a finely tuned instrument.

 

f.e.a.r

or

false evidence appearing real

does not.

it doesn’t feel good.

nope

not at all.

 

we can look at our lives and our experiences

and ‘lessons’

as

a spiral.

as we ascend thru our lives

and

learn or let go or release

whatever is in our divine plan

to experience,

we pass by the same place

many times

as we travel our spiral

till eventually

we reach the top.

 

for me

this final visit

this last time to see

feels the hardest

the densest

and

the MOST uncomfortable.

 

i can feel all of my cells

on every level

squeal!!

as i complete

the last arm

of this part of my life spiral.

 

i tell you tho

now it all feels better.

damn

how did i live with that so long

how did i carry those fears

those beliefs

those….

 

be gentle with yourself

as  you pass thru

what truly feels

like the eye of the needle.

 

there is much space

on the other side.

expansion.

newness.

 

think about who you would be

if your beliefs radically changed?

if your fears were released

or

were visited just one last time??

 

always come back to the breath.

it will save you.

 

trust in the process.

and know

that this would not be happening to you

if you did not

on some level

call it in.

 

yay for evolution!

yay for growth!
we are doing it.

yes we are.