Daily Nugget #66
The Last Visit.
i am visiting
for the last time
the things that have influenced
my inner world
for as long as
well probably my whole life
or
most of it.
i am experiencing deep plunges
into my feelings.
ones that have shaped my experience
defined my beliefs
and
piloted my life.
these feelings
tho they have been with me for so long
are now feeling uncomfortable
or maybe
i’m just now recognizing that THEY ARE NOT REAL!
i am not saying that what we feel is not real.
it’s the fear that isn’t.
f.e.a.r. = false evidence appearing real
(thanks gabby bernstein)
most of these are experiences are fear based.
fear of this happening
or
of this NOT happening
or
bla bla bla.
so now
when these feelings come up
they feel icky
uncomfortable
and
downright suckish
because
THEY ARE NOT REAL.
they feel bad because they are not true.
they are not the TRUTH.
truth resonates beautifully in the body
and
in the emotions.
like a finely tuned instrument.
f.e.a.r
or
false evidence appearing real
does not.
it doesn’t feel good.
nope
not at all.
we can look at our lives and our experiences
and ‘lessons’
as
a spiral.
as we ascend thru our lives
and
learn or let go or release
whatever is in our divine plan
to experience,
we pass by the same place
many times
as we travel our spiral
till eventually
we reach the top.
for me
this final visit
this last time to see
feels the hardest
the densest
and
the MOST uncomfortable.
i can feel all of my cells
on every level
squeal!!
as i complete
the last arm
of this part of my life spiral.
i tell you tho
now it all feels better.
damn
how did i live with that so long
how did i carry those fears
those beliefs
those….
be gentle with yourself
as you pass thru
what truly feels
like the eye of the needle.
there is much space
on the other side.
expansion.
newness.
think about who you would be
if your beliefs radically changed?
if your fears were released
or
were visited just one last time??
always come back to the breath.
it will save you.
trust in the process.
and know
that this would not be happening to you
if you did not
on some level
call it in.
yay for evolution!
yay for growth!
we are doing it.
yes we are.