Daily Nugget #53
the anatomy of empty.

i just emptied
big time.

i emptied my thoughts
feelings
cares
worries
issues
judgements
addictions
goals
did i say cares?!

i fully emptied.
and it sucked for a minute
and
only a minute.
cause then i started to fill up.

i felt SO empty
so lacking anything
so not caring about anything
so not wanting to deal with anything.

i felt hollow
and
pissed at the universe
and
irritated that things were hard
and
not working out.

tho i knew
and
i’ve had enough practice
and
practiced enough
to know that
‘this too shall pass’

but you don’t wanna hear that shit
when you are emptying.
when you are scrubbing the crevices
of your dark places.

i wanted to drown in excess.
and be washed away by my vices.

the vices didn’t really help
for long.
and they made my body feel like shit.
and the empty was still there when their
affects wore off.

you can’t fill empty with things from the outside.
you can’t patch it up with a temporary feel good substance.

the empty must be filled from within.
it is a time to re-assess
examine
and
re-define
what it is you really want.

and
even if you feel like you don’t want anything
in the empty
eventually
you start to feel better
and fill up
with something.

and
hopefully that ‘something’
feels better than the empty.

cause damn.
us humans seem to not like the empty much.
and filling it is what we are SO freakin’ good at.

next time
you find yourself empty
or
emptying
allow your tank to fully get below E.

coast on fumes
until you glide to a stop.
get out.
and i mean really get out.

GO THE HECK OUTSIDE
AND STAY THERE FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE.

breathe and breathe some more.
know that its good to be empty sometimes.
tho it may feel uncomfortable
and
itchy
and
often sucky

you then
have the opportunity to re-fill.

know that its ok to start over
to do everything TOTALLY differently
this time around.

because the world is waiting for you to do things
in a way that ONLY YOU CAN.

empty.
refill.
be you
even more you than you’ve been before
or
ever!

allow it all to let go
and
reset
and
FREEDOM
is what’s left in the wake of empty.

feel it baby.
yah.