Daily Nugget #53
the anatomy of empty.
i just emptied
i emptied my thoughts
did i say cares?!
i fully emptied.
and it sucked for a minute
only a minute.
cause then i started to fill up.
i felt SO empty
so lacking anything
so not caring about anything
so not wanting to deal with anything.
i felt hollow
pissed at the universe
irritated that things were hard
not working out.
tho i knew
i’ve had enough practice
to know that
‘this too shall pass’
but you don’t wanna hear that shit
when you are emptying.
when you are scrubbing the crevices
of your dark places.
i wanted to drown in excess.
and be washed away by my vices.
the vices didn’t really help
and they made my body feel like shit.
and the empty was still there when their
affects wore off.
you can’t fill empty with things from the outside.
you can’t patch it up with a temporary feel good substance.
the empty must be filled from within.
it is a time to re-assess
what it is you really want.
even if you feel like you don’t want anything
in the empty
you start to feel better
and fill up
hopefully that ‘something’
feels better than the empty.
us humans seem to not like the empty much.
and filling it is what we are SO freakin’ good at.
you find yourself empty
allow your tank to fully get below E.
coast on fumes
until you glide to a stop.
and i mean really get out.
GO THE HECK OUTSIDE
AND STAY THERE FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE.
breathe and breathe some more.
know that its good to be empty sometimes.
tho it may feel uncomfortable
have the opportunity to re-fill.
know that its ok to start over
to do everything TOTALLY differently
this time around.
because the world is waiting for you to do things
in a way that ONLY YOU CAN.
even more you than you’ve been before
allow it all to let go
is what’s left in the wake of empty.
feel it baby.