Tales of a Double Virgo

Episode #25

step IN to it

 

‘The Universe is my palette. I paint a glorious picture and step into it.’ Alan Cohen.

this is how i started my day.

 

glorious.

i love that word.

i’ve been thinking a LOT about this quote.

yes

i know it

but to be reminded of it…..

 

my world has been adjusted.

 

some call it a cosmic re-alignment

or

chiropractic cozmathon.

 

wow

we really CAN do that!

actually

we already do

tho sometimes

after we paint it

we slap our hands on it

and

smoosh it all around

making it all brown

and poopy.

 

why the hell do we do that?

why the hell do we do lots of things?

no se.

 

I paint a glorious picture and step IN to it.

what a glorious thing to ponder as we begin to explore

a new year

a new number.

 

last week

we did a year review.

today

perhaps a PREview.

 

what glorious picture will YOU paint?

 

me?

i’ve been ‘dealing’ with a conundrum.

co·nun·drum
kəˈnəndrəm/
noun
  1. a confusing and difficult problem or question.

and

tomorrow is Epiphany

(January 6th)

 

so

my Epiphany within the conundrum

IS….

 

wait

let me give you some back story first.

 

my conundrum:

choosing between engaging with lower vibrations & asleep-ness

OR

looking the other way.

 

it’s really easy for us humans

to want to defend ourselves

to engage in the conflict of defense.

 

what if we chose defenselessness?

i’ve done it before.

not really intentionally

it just happened

and

it was beautiful.

 

picture this:

someone attacks you

with

over the top

ridiculousness.

you can either respond with:

  1.  WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT????!!!!! or
  2.  keep redirecting to the positive. never needing to defend.

it’s hard to NOT defend. it’s in our freaking DNA.

why?

 

can you?

will you?

are you willing?

to choose peace?

choose the higher road?

 

what does the higher road look like?

 

i’ve been pondering this muchly.

what is my best decision?

what will benefit all that is?

 

sometimes you just fucking walk away.

not all battles can be ‘won’.

 

but can you let go and truly move on?

can I let go and move on?

i sincerely fucking hope so.

i want to.

i don’t want to be hanging on

to shitty-feeling things.

 

did i learn?

hell yes.

will i pull that shit again?

hell no.

 

i fucking learned.

big time.

 

thank goodness for you

for blogging

for Epiphany

and

for the myriad of asses

and

fuck faces

who teach us our hardest lessons.

thank you.

i love you and hate you at the same time.

 

blessed are WE

to be HERE

RIGHT NOW

on this

Glorious Earth.

 

what will you paint

AND

step IN to?

 

will you paint conflict?

or

will you paint peace?

will you paint the things that nourish you?

do you know what those things are?

 

me?

horses. music. hot springs. time with family. writing. creating. fun clothes. soup on a cold day.

walkin’ with my doggy. eating chokecherries and service berries. swimming in a cold mountain lake.

drumming with the ladies. a long walk alone. choosing the high road AND a visit to Colorado. ha!

the list goes on.

 

my painting has an ocean. a herd of unicorns & belly aching laughter.

 

paint YOUR glorious picture

fill it with things that nourish you

and

step IN to it.

2017 is your palette.