Daily Nugget #154
puke
it smells.
it feels horrible coming back up.
oh, that feeling right before….
not so unlike our old ‘stuff ‘
that floats to the surface
ready to be faced. again.
the undigested particles of our old selves
the frothy essence of our insides.
whether we face it or not
it faces us.
whether we like it or not
it’s moving up and out.
puke.
the fair.
that gas station corn dog.
those places you tuck your guilt. regret. fear.
that sometimes just explode out of you
leaving you wonder what the hell just happened.
why on earth would i ever do something like that?
tuck that away?
like a soda bottle that i give a hard shake to.
regardless of why or how
it happens.
again and again
until we are buoyant
in our inners.
until we are buoyant in our inners.
the change we are growing towards
yes
is light.
light on every level and in every way.
we process now
in the moment
not allowing anything to stuff>
words to go unsaid>
lives to go un-lived>.
puke.
we usually feel better after.
usually.
tho it may take a bit.
it’s harder the 2nd time.
the anxiety of allowing it to surface
the fear of pain.
the fear of pain.
in the part of us that is really us
we seek peace.
in the part of us that is really us
we seek love and to be loved.
we seek a life without judgment
from the outside
and the in.
or maybe these are the things that i seek
or
i observe others seeking
or
both.
puke.
i’d like to not puke ever again.
in any way shape or form.
i will chew my foods thoroughly
and
eat my ferments
and
digest all of the particles of my experiences
so they can be used as energy
and
not weight.
Deep Nuggets on a pukey day.
sending love and rainbows.
xo