Tales of a Double Virgo
Episode #47
open to it
open to what?
you ask.
what is IT?
IT is the stuff within you
that stops you in your tracks
that cock blocks your progress
that sucks away your confidence
that makes you:
doubt
fear
resist
……..
you know
your ISSUES.
don’t look away.
look IN.
sooooo
some of MY issues are UP.
well
they are often up
and
often i look away.
sometimes run
sometimes medicate.
in the midst
of this current round
i read something
somewhere
‘Open to them.’
Open to them??!
yes i’ve heard that
in one form or another
over and over and over and over and over and over
tho
this time
light bulb.
aha!
they have been
a knockin’
for eons.
& i would mostly
usually
say
‘not available. go away.’
this time
i opened my arms
‘welcome! gosh, you’ve been trying to reach me for EVER!
come on in. let’s have a cup of tea.’
notice i didn’t say
‘fuck off. i’m gonna make a cocktail.’
instead of looking away
running
screaming NOOOOOOOOOO!
i welcomed them IN for a visit.
maybe not a hug……yet.
tho perhaps soon.
what are the ITS within YOU?
what feelings rise up around certain people
or
during certain situations?
our ‘it(s)’
tend to be quite known
AND
familiar
even IF we don’t give them the time of day.
they lurk.
awaiting the perfect condition
to swell
and
rise
and
sometimes
ERUPT
up and out.
and sometimes just up
to be swallowed
before the out.
gulp.
‘they’ really aren’t as scary as they might seem.
the scary part
comes from years and years and sometimes lifetimes
of denial
or
resistance.
like that almost eaten peach that rolled under your seat
to be found by your wandering hand
months later
ew.
or
that sandwich
in that ziplock
swelled with microbial activity
fuzzy beyond belief.
IT lives inside of us
and
IT needs some fucking air
aka: acknowledgment. acceptance. & and eye to eye conversation.
<ps. IT can’t text>
eventually
the volcanic explosion of ITS
will calm to a rumble
and
IT won’t feel like imminent death.
Open To IT
and
See What You Are REALLY Made Of.
not that you are made of it
tho perhaps shaped by it.
what form would you take
withOUT
IT?