Tales of a Double Virgo
Episode #28
look both ways
look both ways
before you cross IN to your next-ness.
one way is the past
the old you.
the other
is possibility.
sometimes we forget to look that way
and
we get slammed
blindsided
by more of the old.
a rusty old version of sameness
that injects more amnesia
in to our quivering bodies
so we stay.
why the F would we stay otherwise?
when faced with my most recent crossroads
i almost DID forget to look towards possibility.
it felt too painful
like it had to see shit i didn’t want to
or
wasn’t ready to.
i reconsidered.
if something is coming up for you
for us
chances are
it’s been there for some time
waiting for the perfect storm
to show itself again.
i felt the familiar pang
the increase of fear
the desire to
RUN LIKE HELL
AWAY
but you never can run from yourself.
i decided
how bad can it really be?
it’s been living IN me
WITH me
for evs!
maybe ‘it’ too
would like to move on.
humans invented prisons
to mirror the endless task
that we pledge to master
of
holding shit in
avoiding the truth
and
letting fear trick us in to believing
that ‘it’ will happen again.
the fear of the feeling.
really
we still HAVE the feeling!
it can’t go anywhere until we let it!
looking away
running away
denial
are all lies we tell ourselves.
who wants to be lied to?
it’s time to look the other way
IN to the eyes of possibility.
my friend said today,
‘You can’t have courage withOUT fear.’
instead of caving to the fear
and choosing sameness,
lean IN to the fear
press it.
you WILL press thru it.
and when you see what possibility looks like
you’ll throw back you head
and
laugh at fear as you thank it.
Comments 3
Love it! I have just had an experience like this. The experience is ongoing. The issue is in me, and has been since I can remember. I just never want to face it because it will take work, & visiting a place I don’t care to hang out. When I realized it’s already in me, I am already hanging out with it, and it’s not going anywhere until I let it, that is when magic started happening again.
Thank you Dee!
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