Tales of a Double Virgo
Episode #59
growth
growth- the process of growing in physical size.
or
growth- the process of growing on the inside.
physical growth is noticeable
at times, obvious.
growth on the inside can only be measured by
- how you now interact with the world
- how you interact with yourself
- how you respond to any given situation
inner growth can be optional
tho
often it is forced.
it is inevitable
tho
we fight it.
we choose to resist it
digging our heels in to sameness
fighting the fear of what’s nextness
finding comfort in the familiar
EVEN….IF….THE……FAMILIAR……SUCKS.
physical growth is hard to fight.
we can slouch
fold over our feet to fit in smaller shoes
bind our breasts or bulging hips
to disguise reality.
one can choose to lean IN to the burn
the uncomfy place of the edge
the edge of comfort
the edge of known
or
we can choose to lean OUT
look away
deny
EVEN FUCKING LIE TO OURSELVES AND OTHERS
about the rise of change
that we aren’t willing to accept
but we feel SO BIG-ly
in our BEings
and it keeps getting bigger till we….
do something
say something
be something
different.
growth.
nobody ever said it would be easy.
is it easier to deny?
to live in constant pain?
to be pushed to our very limits
beyond anything we’ve EVER felt before.
if we would just take one step IN to the next
the next version of us
the who that beckons us closer
and
if necessary
yanks us forward
for our own good.
even tho it burns for a minute
the sweetness lingers longer
when we
JUST ACCEPT IT.
growth.
to fight
or
not to fight it.
lean in to our potential
or
lean out to our comfort.
would you rather choose it?
or
have it choose you?
either way
we are urged
in each moment
to choose
the direction of our expansion.
a tree
or
a hangnail.
you choose.
pain lives in both directions
but
peace ONLY lives in one.