Daily Nugget #157
extreme self doubt
i live in a place of extremes.
extreme terrain
extreme athletes. animals. water.
weather. work. play. ideas.
and yes
emotions.
the earth around me is extreme.
explosive.
it sets up the perfect environment
for an extreme inner landscape.
extreme self doubt.
i reached this place this week.
how can anyone survive in that climate?!
is/was this a passing phase
or
is this a deeper layer of me
exposed by the fold in time
that this ‘blue moon’
illuminates?
extreme self doubt.
extreme cravings for stimulating sugary things.
extreme need for deep rest.
why is this all so extreme?
am i so sensitive that it just feels that way to me?
or
do you feel it?
do you have moments of joy. bliss.
followed by moments of
‘what the hell am i doing’?
how long does it take for the voice of inner love and acceptance
to be louder
than the critic
or
the doubter?
extreme anything
is
extreme.
i need big rest.
big nutrients.
although the gardens are bulging
i am not inspired to cook.
some days
i feel like flee-ing.
but to where?
i will take the extremes with me.
oh
to dip my toes in the ocean more often.
when is that teleport technology
gonna be ready??
wow.
what a ramble.
what a week.
what a freakin year or three.
anyone want to go make a big fire and burn some stuff?
play some music.
dance under extreme skies
full of extreme planetary weather?!
oh lordy.
someone get me a drink quick
of tea
ha!
a hummingbird just flew by
and
hovered in front of my face.
with a tilt of her head
and
a chirp chirp
she buzzed away.
‘hey hummingbird’.
deep breath.
pay attention to your inhale.
deep breath.
pay attention to your exhale.
breathe on purpose.
breathe easy.
the breath. the breath.
oh the breath.
how i love thee.
i’m burning some resins.
clearing with smoke.
a smudge.
a ritual.
a cloudless sky.
what is your heart saying?
do you love you?
are you willing to?
it’s becoming more and more painful
to feel bad.
the caterpillar turns in to a soupy sac of potential.
i am the soup.
dreaming up my emergence.
dreaming where i will fly.
dreaming up a world of empowered~passionate people
ready to lean IN to a new life.
one. two. three. GO!
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