Tales of a Double Virgo

Episode #45

death. grief & popcorn.

 

death of a friend

of a stranger

of ourselves

<a part of us, that is>

grief

oh grief

has our way with us.

 

anyone want popcorn?

 

grieving the loss

of the old

of the new

of the

thought-it-was-forever

person

place

animal

job

home

relationship

body part

belief….

 

xtra butter on my popcorn.

 

we are not who we were

and

we grieve it

rejoice it!

embrace it

embrace us

we

them

ALL.

 

lots of salt too

on my popcorn.

 

sometimes we wish for it.

just take him her them they us we

out of the misery.

but can misery really be taken out of?

 

maybe i should have ghee instead of butter?

 

the rawness of rawtown

is realer than real.

our inners feel bruised

battered

meat tenderized.

 

or coconut oil?

 

how does one recover

from grief pin ball?

a hard thing

shot forcefully thru us

to bounce around

ringing and lighting up things.

 

fuck coconut oil.

 

maybe what lights

is the darkness within us

only to be brightened

eventually

by pain.

 

xtra butter it is.

 

just breathe

just breathe

that’s sometimes all we can do.

we WILL make it thru this

all of it

we will.

 

pass the popcorn.