Daily Nugget #213
and then the old me showed up
i woke up constricted
all balled up in myself.
tight and stiff.
wtf.
i stressed
my forehead wrinkled
my thoughts distracted
my body unrested.
wtf.
then i realized
that it was an older version of me
that showed up
and
decided to take over.
wtf.
wtf x 1000.
ok i’m done wtf-ing.
maybe.
i realized how uncomfortable that older version was.
like attempting to fit an old school TV in to a flat screen.
remember me?
my body was uncomfortable.
my mind was uncomfortable.
everything pretty much felt bad.
this is how i used to live?
to function?
in that highly constricted
stressed out
not resting for a second
state?
ok. one more wtf.
why did that version of me appear?
it was quite shocking.
why did it attempt to take over?
it was so outdated and didn’t fit right.
i guess maybe to show me something?
to show that i have come so far
that i really have changed
~significantly~
in many ways
so much so
that that older version
is completely incompatible.
maybe it was the final appearance
<i sure hope so>
tho i felt a pang of empathy.
wow.
i am SO grateful for my upgrade.
i am SO grateful that i stuck it out
did the work
took action
practiced
and
committed to feeling better.
today
when i woke
the presence of the ‘old me’
could not be detected.
not even a foot print remained
thank goodness.
my newness remained
my newness responded
my newness smiled
thank goodness.
i am grateful for the newness
the new me
my upgrade.
i wonder how it will feel
if my current version
shows up and attempts to take over
my future version.
yikes.
oh, the process.
the growth.
the MEness.
so nice when the current ME shows up.
🙂