Daily Nugget #212

Alteration

 

this word has been bumping around in my head lately.

definition:

the action or process of altering or being altered.

 

sometimes i alter my experience intentionally

by various means.

sometimes i am BEing altered.

and sometimes

my intentional altering alters me

OR

the altering that happens in my life

ultimately alters me.

ha!

 

do you feel the uncomfortable sensation

of change

rising up

OR

the even more uncomfortable sensation

of ‘your old stuff’

rising up <again. even tho you thought you were done with it>

and

you seek to alter

<thru various means>

 

alter thru substances

alter thru denial

OR

alter thru BEing IN whatever it IS

and

feeling yourself bend with it

grow with it

be altered by it.

 

are you the alter-er

OR

the alter-ee?

 

AlterAtion.

to be or not to be.

a little nip and tuck in your energetic fat cells.

a little buzz cut for your overgrown thoughts.

altering ourselves physically

so we feel altered emotionally.

 

escape.

retreat.

oh Dolly,

we all do it.

 

take a moment to tune in to your YOUness.

is there anything you lean away from?

want to run from?

<fast as hell>

 

so you drown your feelings

enough that the voice is muted

softened

and often

shuts the hell up.

 

AlterAtions.

where do YOU make them?
inside? outside? all around?

do you feel the need to alter your current state?
or

are you ok with what is?

 

take note to where you practice acceptance

and where

you seek to alter.

know that you CANNOT escape what’s within.

it may be tucked away neatly

and

still burst forth

usually at an inopportune moment

totally catching you off guard

and

causing you to scramble

or RUN!

 

sometimes an alteration can activate us

when we step IN to it with awareness.

learn to distinguish the difference.

alter to go deeper in to knowing.

avoid alteration that moves you further away from yourself.

 

tools anyone?

tools anyone?