Daily Nugget #212
Alteration
this word has been bumping around in my head lately.
definition:
the action or process of altering or being altered.
sometimes i alter my experience intentionally
by various means.
sometimes i am BEing altered.
and sometimes
my intentional altering alters me
OR
the altering that happens in my life
ultimately alters me.
ha!
do you feel the uncomfortable sensation
of change
rising up
OR
the even more uncomfortable sensation
of ‘your old stuff’
rising up <again. even tho you thought you were done with it>
and
you seek to alter
<thru various means>
alter thru substances
alter thru denial
OR
alter thru BEing IN whatever it IS
and
feeling yourself bend with it
grow with it
be altered by it.
are you the alter-er
OR
the alter-ee?
AlterAtion.
to be or not to be.
a little nip and tuck in your energetic fat cells.
a little buzz cut for your overgrown thoughts.
altering ourselves physically
so we feel altered emotionally.
escape.
retreat.
oh Dolly,
we all do it.
take a moment to tune in to your YOUness.
is there anything you lean away from?
want to run from?
<fast as hell>
so you drown your feelings
enough that the voice is muted
softened
and often
shuts the hell up.
AlterAtions.
where do YOU make them?
inside? outside? all around?
do you feel the need to alter your current state?
or
are you ok with what is?
take note to where you practice acceptance
and where
you seek to alter.
know that you CANNOT escape what’s within.
it may be tucked away neatly
and
still burst forth
usually at an inopportune moment
totally catching you off guard
and
causing you to scramble
or RUN!
sometimes an alteration can activate us
when we step IN to it with awareness.
learn to distinguish the difference.
alter to go deeper in to knowing.
avoid alteration that moves you further away from yourself.
tools anyone?