Tales of a Double Virgo

Episode #46

why are we waiting?

 

this has been bouncing around

in the brain of mine

for some time.

 

what?

the fact that sooooo many of us

wait until things are just so

to settle IN to creative juiciness.

 

i have to feel just so.

the house has to look just so.

my space has to be arranged just so.

the environment.

the people.

the feel.

the freaking everything.

has to be just so

before we say

‘aha! it’s time to create!’

 

i’m gonna share a secret.

DON’T WAIT TILL EVERYTHING IS PERFECT

CAUSE IT NEVER WILL BE.

 

creativity is a necessary nutrient.

one that -truly- we wither & die without.

when i go for a stint without it <UNintentionally of course>

i start to feel a certain way.

maybe it’s angst?

or a feeling of BEing offbeat with my life.

or

a hollow type feeling

that feels like it needs filled with something from the outside.

& when i fill with those outside fill ers

i may even feel worse

which keeps the cycle of:

Creative Deficiency

alive and kicking.

 

start here.

do you know what your creative expression is?

when you think about it, it will feel warm & fuzzy

<tho often Guilt is present with it if we haven’t given it the time of day for a while>

fuck guilt.

 

then look around and see if you have what you need for your craft.

writing is easy.

pen & paper OR computer & fingers.

a few years ago

i made a commitment to WRITE NO MATTER WHAT.

no matter how i felt

no matter who was home

what the house looked like

no matter how much other stuff needed attention

basically

i trained myself to Create Anywhere Anytime No Matter What Chaos Circled Within OR Around Me.

 

this was and IS a powerful practice indeed.

instead of -Waiting for Inspiration-

which i used to do

i learned to call it in.

wherever i was.

 

powerful shit.

 

it also helps us feel that we are not always a cork in the hurricane filled sea.

that life doesn’t have to be left to random

and

-whatever is meant to happen-

 

it helps us connect CONSCIOUSLY

and

INTENTIONALLY

to ourselves

to our world

and

all that is.

 

so i come back to the question-

why are we waiting?

WHY THE FUCK ARE WE WAITING?!

to connect on this level

to be nourished on this level

to learn to call IN presence.

 

know what you love to create.

write. color. draw. knit. sing. make music. paint. build. grow. dance. & on and on forever.

AND DO IT!!

fuck the dishes. the stack of laundry. the bills. the calls. the emails. the endless list of stuff.

and

CREATE!

feed your spirit. connect with you.

nourish your depths.

you may find the drought has been so extreme

that you can’t stop creating

once you start…..

 

commit to it.

daily. weekly. whatever feels right.

and

DO IT!

 

the divine energy

is waiting to be expressed thru you

that unique flavor

that ONLY YOU have.

i’m getting all armageddon and shit.