Tales of a Double Virgo
to Be and not to Do, that is the question ?
the question is
can we BE without DOing?
it seems fucking impossible sometimes.
i just got back from a family vacation.
so nice to chill and have nothing to DO
until i noticed
my inability to truly and fully chill the F out
we had no plans.
that WAS the plan.
tho i still found myself feeling like i needed to launch OUT
of my chair and go DO.
that incessant urge to constantly DO
has been hard wired IN to my BEing.
i have moments of BE
tho when dropped in another country
with no DO’s on the list
it took me some time
to sink IN to it.
who made the rule that constant DOing is necessary?
why the hell can i not simply BE?!
with my awareness cranked up
my DO muscles twitching
i focused on my breath.
slowly but surely
i’m not sure if at all totally
i started to BE.
i leaned IN to the rhythm of where i was
continuously reminded myself
that there will be plenty of DOing to be done
from many moments of bliss
i am faced with a new life structure
a new lump of clay
to be formed how i want.
what will i do?
the new question is
what do i want to BE?
practice more BEing
dream up what i want to BE.
all is in the BE
when the BE is figured
the DO can support.
the DO without the BE
is a wind up doll with no direction.
the clear BE behind the DO
is a laser.
to BE and not to DO, that is the question?
figure the BE, then the DO comes to support.
the BE must be practiced
leaned IN to
so the DO has purpose.
the DOing IS the BEing.
sit somewhere comfy when you don’t have to be somewhere.
notice how long you can BE without the urge to DO.
are you thinking about work? house stuff? emails? updating your status?
those unfinished projects? what you have to accomplish yet today? guilt for sitting?
what IF the BEing is all that matters?