Tales of a Double Virgo
the suspicion-of-goodness reflex
oh my gosh
i feel fucking awesome.
it’s lasting a few days
and a few more
i’m still feeling good.
Does This Mean Something BAD is Going To Happen??!!!
you know you’ve felt it.
an extra happy/blissful/feel-good place
extra lots of stuff going well
extra feel goodness
like there’s literally
a little evil you
sitting on your shoulder
‘uh oh, you better watch out! something bad is definitely going to happen.
you can’t possibly have such a long stretch of feel good!’
fear sucks the feel good out of your feel good
you are left
looking over your shoulder
wondering what the hell is going to happen.
little evil me!
why on earth
would i believe
that feel goodness
can’t possibly be long lasting?!
why would i believe that my happiness has a time limit
at any moment
someone or something
will come along
and pull the plug on my happy town
watch my feel goodness
just like the lack reflex from last week
is just that
an unconscious response to something
built in to our belief system
at some point in our life.
many of us are more wired to doubt than trust.
why would we be programmed to believe
that happiness is fleeting
that the majority of our time spent here
is supposed to be challenging
and conflict filled
if we manage to have a brief stay of goodness
we can count on its swift exit
to stage left in our life play
as i see it
<az eye sea it>
we all have a control panel
for driving our body/life.
if you are willing to entertain this idea
access your panel
you may find
that many of the dials are f’ed
and need replacing.
i tend to remember my control panel
when i feel dehydrated.
with a swipe of my hand
my panel rises up from my chest.
my hydration knob
tends to fall out of alignment
causing my bod to dry.
i’ve recently realized
that i could use a full panel upgrade.
instead of the knobs that break and tweek
i’d like solid dials that stay put
with the flexibility to auto adjust
when need be.
the upgraded version is smarter.
you can use your panel to access things beyond your physicalness.
the reflexes, for instance.
even tho a reflex can be a physical response
it is born in the unseen realm.
we are reacting before we are even aware of it.
what if you could go in to your panel
re-adjust the dials/knobs/switches??
if this is your first visit
see what vitamins/minerals might be turned ‘off’
see what organs might be turned down too low
maybe your eyes could use a boost?
fix or upgrade the knob(s)
set it/them to where you want.
yes, you do have that much control over your body.
it is ready for you to intentionally pilot it.
go to the reflex page of your ipanel.
see what presents itself.
it may take some time to understand the language of your instruction manual.
be willing to become a master.
if you’d like to shake the lack reflex
the suspicion of goodness reflex
the myriad of other reflexes in your programming
adjust the settings.
this doesn’t mean that you are totally off the hook.
your body has been functioning on auto pilot for freaking ever
you must pay attention.
notice the reflex
change your reaction.
then go back and REadjust the setting again.
fine tune yourself in to the purring vehicle
you have the potential to become.
this is real.
PS. most panels are found in the torso somewhere.
look for it
trust what your minds eye shows you.
we have great sci-fi movies/shows/books to give our imagination some ideas.