Tales of a Double Virgo

Episode #59

growth

 

growth- the process of growing in physical size.

or

growth- the process of growing on the inside.

 

physical growth is noticeable

at times, obvious.

growth on the inside can only be measured by

  1. how you now interact with the world
  2. how you interact with yourself
  3. how you respond to any given situation

 

inner growth can be optional

tho

often it is forced.

it is inevitable

tho

we fight it.

 

we choose to resist it

digging our heels in to sameness

fighting the fear of what’s nextness

finding comfort in the familiar

EVEN….IF….THE……FAMILIAR……SUCKS.

 

physical growth is hard to fight.

we can slouch

fold over our feet to fit in smaller shoes

bind our breasts or bulging hips

to disguise reality.

 

one can choose to lean IN to the burn

the uncomfy place of the edge

the edge of comfort

the edge of known

or

we can choose to lean OUT

look away

deny

EVEN FUCKING LIE TO OURSELVES AND OTHERS

about the rise of change

that we aren’t willing to accept

but we feel SO BIG-ly

in our BEings

and it keeps getting bigger till we….

do something

say something

be something

different.

 

growth.

 

nobody ever said it would be easy.

is it easier to deny?

to live in constant pain?

to be pushed to our very limits

beyond anything we’ve EVER felt before.

 

if we would just take one step IN to the next

the next version of us

the who that beckons us closer

and

if necessary

yanks us forward

for our own good.

even tho it burns for a minute

the sweetness lingers longer

when we

JUST ACCEPT IT.

 

growth.

to fight

or

not to fight it.

lean in to our potential

or

lean out to our comfort.

 

would you rather choose it?

or

have it choose you?

either way

we are urged

in each moment

to choose

the direction of our expansion.

a tree

or

a hangnail.

 

you choose.

 

pain lives in both directions

but

peace ONLY lives in one.